All around me, from within and without, there will be forces trying to knock me back down. The goal isn’t to be pretty good, barely saved, decently and acceptably righteous, the goal is to have a complete immersion in the glory that is my salvation. In doing so, the inevitable attempts to make me full of anger and lust will come from so many places. I have to be on the watch for any and every attempt, because it should be a given by now that this will happen.
I may not wish to end up as a spirit-filled Pentecostal Egelical, but I do think there is merit in spending free time trying to focus on becoming better aligned with God and the working of the Spirit, reading the Bible and praying, rather than devoting free time to reading random things in the news that I have no control over.
The key here is to always be working to re-align myself with God. I don’t want to develop another hobby or pastime, or get caught up in some new TV show. For me, the process must be continuous, as much as possible, given that I am still a husband and a father with worldly duties. However, until the day comes when the State wishes to restrict my religious freedoms, I have all of the freedom in the world to spend my free time as I see fit.
Even when that time comes, I shouldn’t cease, but perhaps then I will begin to see how I might become a martyr.