Cease wanting things. Cease wanting to become great.
Really, push all thoughts and expectations that you will ever amount to anything at all out of your head. Instead, accept the work you have to do. You have been assigned to do work, not be remembered.
But, there is a push and a pull. You are being pushed, and you are being pulled. That which pushes and pulls should be the same, but is it?
This life is full of so many unfinished things.
There are too many people now who probably hold some kind of grudge against you, but you would do more damage trying to track them down and ask for their forgiveness. The longer you stay here, the more unhappy memories you make–that is, unhappy memories that people have of you.
Your best hope is just to be forgotten, but that probably won’t completely happen, either.