Who you were.
Who you are.
Who you hope to be.
Why these aren’t the same.
No simple answers. Not, oh it’s just too much fear. Or, oh, you didn’t practice enough. Or, that’s just not me.
Simple answers are great for simple problems. This clearly is not a simple problem, or it would have been solved by all of the simple answers a long time ago.
Awareness of past, present, future, places seen and unseen. Not for the purpose of clinging to them, but awareness for its own sake.
The will to improve even as the mirror tells you that you have passed your prime. Must keep improving as you are able.