the feeling that something bad is going to happen just because nothing bad has really happened in a long time. the sense that i or humanity or both are overdue for some great bad thing to take place. the prayers for God to make it not be so. the forgetfulness to be grateful for all that is good. the memories of all the bad things of the past, while forgetting most of the good things. the raising up of little inconveniences to the status of being really bad things, just because you are certain they are precursors to something really bad.
you start to feel like your very continued existence on earth is just a means of prolonging the inevitable, a way of lulling you into thinking that maybe tomorrow you can let your guard down.