The question you are going to have to ask yourself is: when are you going to decide that caving into the concepts of the devil isn’t the way to get you to the Promised Land? You cave in so easily, and then complain about it unceasingly to the heavenly Father.
The problems you are facing may have originated inside of you when you were still young and naive about things. But, the entity who will decide whether or not you ultimately solve your problems before you die, is you.
The part of you that is still living is the part of you that is connected to something much bigger. The part of you that thinks you are insignificant, irrelEt, and soon to be forgotten is the part of you that is already dead.
You have to make the decision by yourself as to whether or not you are going to keep telling the same story.
The story of you needs to be told anew, or it shouldn’t be told at all.