They put me inside an isolation chamber

They put me inside an isolation chamber. I think they did it for my own good, but it really did smart. I was just starting to flex my social legs a bit, and finding that I had more fun going to talk to people over drinks at a happy hour than sitting at my desk writing code all day. I know I’m not the most sociable person, and I suppose that my sales skills are pretty crappy when the deal reaches the negotiation stage.

But, I really prefer to solve people problems or at least solve people’s technology problems in a consultative role, rather than jump in and start trying to get my hands dirty myself. However, unless it is something really tricky, I always end up being the code monkey for some reason. People like knowing they have a go-to person in a hands-are-dirty role that they don’t have to think about.

I’d rather just go have drinks with you and strategize, and talk about the big picture and come up with a nice PPT presentation that you can take back to your team with some Visio flowcharts and GANT charts, and let someone else do all the heavy lifting. I want to move on after I give my recommendations and collect my consultant’s fee. You can thank me or hate me later, but I didn’t promise anything other than a recommendation.

They put me inside an isolation chamber, though, these people who decide who gets to do sales and who gets to do marketing and who gets to be the button-pushing monkey. It got so bad that I had to quit. And then it happened again, and again, and again, and…I gave up. Was this supposed to be my calling? To stay at home all day tied to a desk, staring at a computer screen, wearing a headset, talking people through their problems and promising a lot of work I’d do later, but hopefully never, rather than later?

I felt good today. I finally found a WordPress theme that wasn’t breaking apart, and posted some copy about my services. I changed my job title and company on LinkedIn to be Freelancer Extraordinaire, and now I was ready. I guess tomorrow I’ll start prospecting. I don’t want to do too much at once.

I’ll troll through my LinkedIn contacts looking for people who might be at organizations that would need my services. Maybe this will be a bad approach, and stir up a lot of old wounds, and cause a bunch of people to think they are my friend so that entitles them to ask me to do something for nothing. It’s happened before.

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